Initiate - With Love // With Rage EP
Regular price $19.98A thin line separates our most extreme feelings. Across this line, we express grief and joy, confusion and confidence, and hate and love with the same amount of passion and vigor. Initiate sonically channel opposite ends of a vast emotional continuum. Anger and wrath overflow from serrated riffs, pit-splitting breakdowns, and cathartic screams, whereas affirmations of comfort, assurances of friendship, and promises of forever are beamed through otherworldly chord progressions, swaths of keys, and ethereal vocal transmissions. Elements of hardcore, alternative, metal, and indie coalesce like colors in a kaleidoscope, fissuring, fragmenting, and fusing back into focus. Following widespread acclaim, packed shows, and millions of streams, the quartet—Crystal Pak [vocals], Michael Morales [bass], Draven Carter [guitar], Manning Gray [guitar] and John Hodge [drums]—strike an uncanny balance between sounds and emotions on their 2026 With Love // With Rage EP [Blue Grape Music].
“When I looked back at the lyrics, everything read as a letter, either to another person in my life, my friends, or myself,” reveals Crystal. “However, a letter to a friend would be signed off ‘With Love’ not ‘With Rage’. I intentionally wrote these songs, so they spoke to these two opposing feelings: love and rage. You can tell which tracks spill to which side.”
2025’s “Too Much” saw the group expand their sonic palette, layer shimmering sonics over fuzzed-out riffing and seething vocal paroxysms and illuminating the expanse of Initiate’s rapidly evolving vision.
Kicking off another chapter, they attracted Blue Grape to their corner and hit the studio with longtime collaborator and producer Zach Tuch [Silverstein, Knocked Loose] in order to record With Love//With Rage. Widening their collective palette, the musicians nodded to inspirations as diverse as Hum, Deftones, Jane’s Addiction, Rage Against The Machine, and Failure as well as longtime favorites Paramore. “We all wondered, ‘What would it sound like if Clairo wrote a Quicksand record?’,” the vocalist laughs. For the first time, Crystal contributed guitar and bass, adding another dimension altogether.
The single “Numb The Pain” illuminates these dynamics. Echoes of clean guitar give way to an uneasy detuned crunch. Breezy strumming anesthetizes the blunt force trauma of screeched confessions a la “Tried to erase myself in my head…like I never…like I never happened.” Her divine harmonies careen over a delicate bridge, melting into a final explosion.
“There are countless songs about brotherhood,” observes Crystal. “I’m saying, ‘Here’s a love song for my friends’. During this time in my life, I really leaned on my friendships to get me through everything. I could never adequately express the amount of gratitude I felt for these people, so I decided to write a hardcore song about loving them. The screaming and the singing are dancing around the middle of the song, which is my favorite part.”
John recalls. “After Mike played the riff, the drums came easily. To me, it’s the perfect rock song.”
Setting the tone, a galloping punk beat tramples swells of feedback on the opener “Burn After Reading.” You can practically hear Crystal grit her teeth as her acidic delivery burns right through a whole layer of distortion, going on to lament, “Can’t recognize the person I became.”
“‘Burn After Reading’ represents both Love and Rage,” she goes on. “It’s a breakup song, and it’s super personal to me.”
“I was on the hunt for pretty chords, so it would sound a little different,” Mike reveals. “It has some aggression, but it’s beautiful in places.”
Uneasy cymbals skitter, and a frantic chug nearly sputters out of control on the venomous “Delusions.” Crystal notes, “It’s my anger at the system, but I’m also making sure this anger doesn’t blind me from the joys in the world.”
Then, there’s “Shadowboxing.” The rhythm slows, guitar trudges ahead, and Crystal admits, “I don’t want to die. I just want to disappear.” She elaborates, “This is like written documentation of the way my brain works and how dark it can get when you’re in a dark place. You’re basically boxing with yourself.”
“Future Saving Grace” clearly elucidates Initiate’s evolution. A loose bassline gives the track a distinct bounce. From there, it crescendos towards a call-and-response between melodic instrumentation and guttural vocals punctuated by distant piano and hypnotic humming. “It’s definitely anthemic,” Mike says. “Our non-hardcore influences came along for the ride on this one. We definitely went into new territory, and it sounds so big.”
“The piano was the perfect ending,” Crystal continues. “In terms of meaning, it addresses self-love.”
Ultimately, Initiate embody another kind of heaviness all their own on With Love//With Rage.
“Hardcore doesn’t have to solely express anger,” Crystal leaves off. “There are so many complex emotions you can have beyond ‘Fuck my ex’ or ‘Fuck the world’. The human spectrum of coexisting feelings is massive, and that’s a beautiful thing.”
“It’s possible to convey vulnerability with heavy and in-your-face music,” concludes John. “The EP proves that.”
Track List:
- Burn After Reading
- Delusions
- Shadowboxing
- Numb The Pain
- Future Saving Grace
Release Date: August 7, 2026
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